Zach's Blog!

Yeah.

2012-01-20T08:15:00.001+08:00

You know what. Fuck this shit. I look through this damned blog and all I see is fucking emo shit. Yeah, fuck this emo shit blog. I'm happy for you though. You found a good guy. Last long. :)

I am...

2012-01-19T22:43:00.001+08:00

going crazy. I am going crazy. I am. Going. Crazy. I've actually planned out what to say to you if we go out together, just the two of us. But that's if the two of us go out together or, if I have the courage to actually carry out what I had planned in my head. I can't rest in peace anymore. Sigh.

:(

2012-01-19T18:35:00.001+08:00

My heart, it feels so god damned heavy. :(

Math.

2012-01-19T13:39:00.001+08:00

More reasons to hate math. Yes, I hate math.

No, I don't need you.

2012-01-18T22:19:00.001+08:00

If one day you feel like crying...Call me.I don't promise that I will make you laugh,But I can cry with you .

If one day you want to run away--Don't be afraid to call me.I don't promise to ask you to stop...But I can run with you .

If one day you don't want to listen to anyone...Call me.I promise to be there for you.And I promise to be very quiet.

But if one day you call...And there is no answer...Come fast to see me.Perhaps I need you.

-Unknown

(Taken from http://http://athermaniyar.blogspot.com/) - Awesome blog.

Putting the glass down?

2012-01-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

I was blog-hopping just now and then suddenly, I stumbled upon a blog with an extremely interesting posting relating to me at this moment. The blog was, http://athermaniyar.blogspot.com/ And the post was as below;

"Once, a professor began his class by holding up a glass with some water in it. He held it up for all to see and asked the students, 'How much do you think this glass weighs?' '1 pound!' ....'2 pounds!' .....'3 pounds!' ......the students answered.
'I really don't know unless I weigh it,' said the professor, 'but, my question is: What would happen if I held it up like this for a few minutes?' 'Nothing' the students said.
'OK what would happen if I held it up like this for an hour?' the professor asked. 'Your arm would begin to ache' said one of the students.
'You're right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?' 'Your arm could go numb, you might have severe muscle stress & paralysis; have to go to hospital for sure' ventured another student. All the students laughed.
'Very good. But during all this, did the weight of the glass change?' Asked the professor. 'No,' replied the students.' 'Then what caused the arm ache; the muscle stress?
Instead, what should I do?' The students were puzzled. 'Put the glass down' said one of the students. 'Exactly!' said the professor. 'Life's problems are something like this. Hold them for a few minutes in your head; they seem OK. Think of them for a long time; they begin to ache. Hold them even longer; they begin to paralyze you. You will not be able to do anything.'
It is important to think of the challenges in your life, but EVEN MORE IMPORTANT to 'put them down' at the end of every day before you go to sleep. That way, you are not stressed, you wake up every day fresh, strong, can handle any issue, any challenge that comes your way!
Remember friend- PUT THE GLASS DOWN TODAY!"

And then now, I ask myself. Why is it so hard to put the glass down, why?..

Tomorrow.

2012-01-18T21:42:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow. Sigh, lets see how I'll be like for that 2 hours. All I have to do is hold everything in for that 2 hours and just act as myself. Or rather, act as my happy self.

:(

2012-01-18T11:15:00.001+08:00

Oh god, I'm so miserable now.

24/7

2012-01-17T22:29:00.001+08:00

It's on my mind all the time. How do I move on this way.

I need to.

2012-01-17T14:32:00.001+08:00

I need to tell someone about my feelings. I need to talk to someone. I need a hug.

Why?

2012-01-17T08:22:00.001+08:00

Why did I ever think I had a chance. Why?

Typical me.

2012-01-16T15:42:00.001+08:00

I should've made my move when I actually had the chance. Now, I've lost that chance. This is the reason why I'm still single. Sigh. Dammit Zac, can you stop hesitating and do something.

It's Not Getting Better.

2011-05-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

This place is like so dead. Sigh, sadly, I have to revive it. Cause basically life's getting harder and harder. I don't know how long more I can live like this. I just hope the storm will go away soon. I just don't know how long more I can take it. I need to continue posting here so that I don't breakdown. Well, I guess that's all for tonight. Nights people. - Blogged from my Windows Phone 7.

ASUS N53Jn! :D

2010-08-31T23:00:00.003+08:00

AN AWESOME NOTEBOOK! :D I SO WANT IT SO BADLY!!

Back to normal self =/

2010-07-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

sigh.. it looks like i'm gonna start being emo all over again.. not only am i sad, but i'm fucking pissed at the same time too.. what the fuck man! =(.. >={...ARGH!!...(!@&#&!(@*#&!()@*#&!@!@*

Damn, I Blew It..

2010-06-29T20:07:00.001+08:00

Sigh.. I just can't help it but have this feeling that I blew my chance.. =(.. I forgot the past so fast.. but then, i blew it to forget it fully..

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2 weeks of being sick, a week of being busy..

2010-06-21T16:40:00.002+08:00

Phew..it's all over!..but i'm still a bit sick.. =/ i've been sick since the start of MSTs. and now, one week of holidays are over but i'm still sick =(.. oh well, at least the MSTs are over.. and right after the MSTs i was supposed to go for some camp with B, but i PS-ed her =(.. sorry B! really sorry! love you loads! don't be angry!.. so i had my weekends free.. but right after my weekends(sigh) i had camp. Angling Club FOCamp.. it wasn't that bad.. the first night, i went off for Office 2010 Launch Party..geek much?..hahha..it was okay..wasn't what i really expected..then i went back to school.. i reached school at about 11 plus.. haha...yea..quite late..then everyone was at their bunks back.. not much happened then.. then next day, we went to ECP! =D woohoo! fishing! so awesome!..caught quite a few little fishies, released some and used some as live bait..but caught nothing big, sadly.. then we went back to school.. then the last day wasn't much..but we were quite reluctant to leave each other..haha.. now, after the camp ended..(which is on wednesday btw) i rushed home, repacked my bag, showered and all, then rushed to meet the rest to go for ACERs Chalet! the super awesome shit!..haha..refer to Zi Hao's Blog for more info on what happened during the chalet a.k.a "camp".. and now i realise how stubborn Verena is! tsktsk.. asking her to shower is like asking someone very happy about his life to jump off a building!.. but, i managed to get her to shower =D..thanks for taking care of yourself V! =).. ok, what was saddening was only guys stayed over for the 2nd night..everyone else ran away..hahaa..next morning(friday already)it was damn hard for me to wake up..but i woke up, then i rushed home, dumped everything, repacked my bag(again), then rushed for school, to go for SPIC FOCamp! hahaa...damn tiring.. and i overslept in the train, and when i woke up, i was at Clementi! then i was like, dammit man..haha..so i reach school at about 12.45pm then...then camp ended the next day! with my group dominating almost everything!..haha..i was best camper for guys, then kunkun(in my group also) was best camper for girls, then our group still won the best group! =D awesomeness..haha...so, after that we went to eat at Ramenten at Clementi, then we headed home! phew!...slept almost the whole day away on sunday, and today too..hahaha...so that's all!...will be working 2moro! at least i won't rot at home!..

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i want things to go back on track soon..

2010-05-30T21:54:00.003+08:00

things seem to be getting a little bit better.(and yes, i'm blogging, because of someone.. haha.. you should feel grateful that i'm blogging for you btw..) okay so, as i was saying, things seems to be getting a bit better, or at least i'm feeling a wee bit better. called up the NS place yesterday morning, they said CMPB will contact me in 3-5 working days to reschedule my Further Reporting Order. although i still feel that the FRO is for me to go to NS. it may or may not be a good thing, because i've been thinking, and i'm getting myself prepared if i have to drop out of school to go for NS.. yeap.. after i called, i went to changi beach, i didn't want to go actually, but my godmom said she will disown me if i didn't =/, because this was like once a year event where the family would gather together.. but it turned out to be quite okay, because i brought my fishing gear, and sat alone by the beach side and fished, and cleared my thoughts... haha, emo much?...yea...i didn't mix around... it was really beautiful btw, will show you some pics i took..

there, beautiful aren't they?...so that concludes the end of my blog post today, till next time ;]

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a blog's no longer enough..

2010-05-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

sigh, i don't know what to do already...everything's such a mess. quote from the bottom of the letter i just received, "Note: Any person within or outside Signapore who fails to comply with this Notice shall be guilty of an offence under the Enlistment Act (Chapter 93) and shall be liable on conviction to a fine not exceeding $10,000 or to imprisonment for a term not exceeding 3 years or to both such fine and imprisonment."... not only that, i don't know why but, i feel so hurt. Everything's in such a mess, and half a year is gone already, so fast. I hope this mess is cleared up fast.. and this blog is no longer enough for me to spill my thoughts and feelings, so, Thanks for being there Jeremy, you're such a great friend. http://sincere.lge.com/1001862 (I didn't know how to was the best way to say sorry and thanks to you, then, i saw the competition while otw to school, so i thought maybe it'll be quite a good way..) so, back to the topic, yeah, my life's pretty much screwed, so stop thinking yours is. i still need a miracle though. sigh..

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life.

2010-05-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

oh my, my life's such a mess at the moment, i don't wanna get kicked out of school, i don't want to disappoint my parents =(, my grades are total crap, i haven't absorbed anything....i have so much things to think of, i need a miracle...i need motivation.. MID-SEMS IN 2 WEEKS! )*!$U*)#$)(!@#*$()#*$)(!#*!!!!

i like typing in codes! =D

2010-05-08T23:20:00.001+08:00

like i said, i like typing in codes! =D

?!

2010-05-08T23:19:00.001+08:00

01101001 01100110 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 00100111 01110010 01100101 00100000 01101110 01101111 01110100 00100000 01100111 01101111 01101110 01101110 01100001 00100000 01110011 01101000 01100001 01110010 01100101 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 01110010 00100000 01110000 01110010 01101111 01100010 01101100 01100101 01101101 01110011 00100000 01110111 01101001 01110100 01101000 00100000 01101101 01100101 00101100 00100000 01110100 01101000 01100101 01101110 00100000 01110111 01101000 01111001 00100000 01110011 01101000 01101111 01110101 01101100 01100100 00100000 01101001 00100000 01110011 01101000 01100001 01110010 01100101 00100000 01101101 01101001 01101110 01100101 00100000 01110111 01101001 01110100 01101000 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101 01110010 01110011 00111111 00100001

4 9474 968 5639...

2010-05-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

44 736753, 48'7 2336 2 5664 8463 74623 4 2564433. 8447 2564 7678 47 9748836 8447 929 2322873 84373'7 736748483 4636. 3477859, 84373'7 5878 76 6269 844647 7866464 84776844 69 4323. 4'6 3335464 2 6498873 63 36684667 288, 4'6 624659 3335464 3696 2322873 843 4475 4 5453 36376'8 5669 8428 4 732559 5453 437 2568. *insert sad face here* 4'6 5878 5678. 7663663 753273 238423 63 66 9428 86 36. 4 3668 9268 437 86 28643 63 43 4 8355 437 69 33354647 2322873 743 2573239 73532833 63. *insert sad face here* I really don't know what to do. *emo* (PS. it'll take me ages to translate this back cause i forgot what i wrote)

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Am I Just Lying To Myself?

2010-05-02T00:24:00.002+08:00

Am I?
Maybe I am...
I don't know
I'm confused, as usual...
I need to wake up, I need to change..
I must...

Please Understand..

2010-04-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I just wish that you could understand how I feel, because, I'm just a coward to voice out.

Right now, I need some time to be alone, to be quiet. I need to think things through. Why don't you understand this?

Please, Just leave me be, give me some time to cool..

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Lost...Again...

2010-04-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm lost again...hai...why...why...why...why does it have to become like this...

Leaving for GYL Camp Tomorrow!

2010-03-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

Hi people, It's been such a long time since I last updated!haha, been quite busy. I know! Me? Busy? It's like WOW right? haha.

So what have I been up to? I had the annual jobweek camp, very short-handed nowadays, hai...
The jobweek camp clashed with my SPX! D: but not to worry! I managed to go for both! hurray for multi-tasking!
No pictures from jobweek camp. haha
but!there's pictures from SPX! and here they are!

ok, nvm, there's too much to upload, so just go to my facebook to view the photos! =P

so, i love all those who were under me! they were awesome! and the students of day 1, they named the team, Team Zac! omg! i'm so honored and touched! =') haha, and tasneem and khorli switched names, like -_-, wth only, nothing better to do isit both of you??haha. and they were the two imps who kept disturbing me haha... and khorli said steph was my gf...i'm like ?!?!?!!! haha...she already has a bf, and i don't wish for an early death, so dear khorli, steph is not my gf, please make sure you get this. hahaha...
and day 3 team, there was 2 SP girls under me! HAHAHHAH! they were Sheena and Shu Qing...they're both in DMC! CASS! haha, so envious of CASS, or, i'm not envious, just that I hate my school....could be...
ok, i don't know what else to post already, so, my famous, funny section! and people have been complaining because they love the comics! x)

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Lost.

2010-02-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

I'm Lost. I Don't Know What To Do Already.

I Wanna Change...

2010-02-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

wow, what Julailah said really struck me, got me thinking quite a lot. Maybe, there really is negativity in being emo... Well then, that's one more thing to add to my changes list. I really hope that I CAN change.
1)Rid myself of the old me.
2)Stop being an emo.
3)Start to study, learn what study is.
4)Don't get myself kicked out of school.
5)When i start something, I MUST finish it.

Those are the things I hope to achieve hopefully by mid-year. I know I'll be alone to fight this war within myself but I can do it, for the good of myself and the people around me! and no more pessimist! =) Always look on the bright side of life! lalalalalalalala~~...
What else happened today? I submitted my BombCar(as said by Jeremy). Well, I feel very sorry for Ben, he still did some stuffs but, he didn't do enough for the Lecturer to not screw his ass. Other than that, while on the way to school, i saw a girl wearing a cute ring, it was a legoman ring!...Basically thats all that happened today, and also, i should really work on my Paparazzi Remix...I'm not even working on it! haha. ok, what else shall i say?...oh, I think its about time i changed my blogskin because that would be my first big step away from being emo. Thanks Jul, you woke me up =) ... alot of people had woken me up ever since I entered poly, but so far, only a little of me has changed. I shall do my best to put in effort to change. =) until next time!

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Am I?

2010-02-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Somehow I feel like I'm irritating...am I really?(Ee Seuu and Sisters, do not answer this.) Other than that, Julee struck me, she said, emo had negativity in it...or sth like that...it got me thinking...gosh i hate that...now i'm gonna start thinking too much. other than that...i'm still having troubles supressing my old self...argh...help...haii...what else is happening in my life?...hmm...what about this being the 18th year in a row that i'm alone on V day?...yea, i know...i'm such a lonely guy...what to do, i've been like this for as long as i can remember, and i don't even know how to ask a girl out or, i'm just scared of getting rejected again...wow, Julee could be right, there is negativity, but then again, there are thought about this. wow. ok, while i ponder upon this, enjoy my TiK ToK Remix, ciao guys...

TiK ToK Remix by Zac, TheOneAndOnly!

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Lost.

2010-01-31T01:50:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to do already. I'm so lost. In my heart and mind. I feel so alone. I feel so sad, as per usual. Lost in a world of my own, nothing to do, don't know what to do, alone in it. Running in circles, creating a circular trench. My mind is in an abyss, lost forever, wandering drifting, away from my consciousness, further and further away, with each step, making me unknown to even myself. what am I to do?...I need help, but I don't want help. I am aware, but unaware, I'm fine, but I'm not...No, I'm not...

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It's Done!

2010-01-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

finally! my 2nd remix is done! but it shall only be posted on my next post. phew! this is tiring man, and yes, as usual, i'm still up at this time. anyway, enjoy my trance music, because i'm too tired to write in anything else, so i'm gonna go to sleep. nights y'all!

Trance01 by Zac, TheOneAndOnly!

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btw, sorry if i have already post this picture, because i've lost track of the photos which i've uploaded.

-Insert Desired Title Here-

2010-01-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

ok, as usual, not much has happened. mom's birthday as per normal, ya-da ya-da ya-da...someone stole mah bike seat. i've got no more money. basically that all yeah. next up, would be my Fireflies remix, it sucks to the core apparently. haha. ok. basically thats all!

Fireflies Remix by Zac, TheOneAndOnly!

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Wait for it!

2010-01-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

At long last! I've completed my Fireflies Remix! but I think it kinda sucks. total crapness for my first try. haha. nvm, will keep getting better =D. Anyway, I'm too tired to upload it now, so wait for my next post tomorrow! It'll feature my Remix! cya!

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Resistance, I must resist!

2010-01-18T23:45:00.001+08:00

My worst fears are coming back, I fear myself, I fear my old self. It's coming back. Slowly trying to take over me all over again. I must resist, for the people around me. I don't want to be the asshole I used to be. Sorry J, I know it's hard on you but I'm trying my best here to resist reverting back to my old self. I'm fighting a losing war currently. Please forgive me. Please bear with whatever nonsense I throw at you. I must destroy my manifesto, overrule it, whatever it is, I must rid of it, because I think my manifesto is the one haunting me, forcing me to remain who I am, inside and even if you change me, I will still be whatever I am and, that other me can take over anytime, rot my soul, destroying my life, filling everyone else with hatred. This other me must be destroyed, Permanently.

Other than that, not much has happened in the life of TheOneAndOnly! There isn't much going on. My secondary school maths teacher is coming over to my house on saturdays to teach me maths =D. She was only a part-time teacher there. My secondary school specifically hired her to teach my class so, when we graduated, she left too. Took me quite some time to track her down. From what I heard, she's a very expensive tuition teacher and she's teaching me for free!(i think, hopefully). She's a great teacher, so far the only one who can unleash the inner mathematician in me, although not fully, it is still a stepping stone and thus, once again, my other me steps in,trying to revert that change. Resist is the word. If I'm acting differently in front of you, my friends, please tell me as this would suppress my inner me, resisting it from coming out. I also need to concentrate on Principles Of Electrical And Electronic Engineering. My PTN is very caring, she called me up just now, quite late(most likely she was busy just now), and she had quite a long conversation with me.
Lets see, what else...I seriously need to get headphones, my ears are in pain, it hurts so much to use these earpieces. I think that's all, next up is a demo of what my next piece would be like. Enjoy!

Fireflies Remix(Demo) by Zac, TheOneAndOnly!

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Dead? Not Yet!

2010-01-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

wow, my blog almost went dead. Well, can't blame me, been gaming this few weeks...ok fine, you can blame me. I complete Tom Clancy's H.A.W.X. in less than a week. amazing. well, i'm so lazy to update my blog because i live such a sad life, and almost every post will have at least a bit of sad thing inside, so it's kinda boring isn't it. well, i don't have much to update. got quite a few new softwares. anyone wants them can come to me. and the next is just a random mix of loops, done with Steinberg Cubase 5. yeah, it's a bit crappy...i suck at this hahaha...enjoy!

LoopMix1 by Zac, TheOneAndOnly!

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Lazyness Has Gotten To Me...

2010-01-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

oh noez! D= this shall be a short post because i'm lazy to update. sadded eh?...cya!

Busy Streak Will Be Ending!

2010-01-09T00:24:00.001+08:00

k, so i just returned home. have not slept since thursday. i'm so shagged. had to wash my black sp tee by hand because i need it 2moro, and i can't just chuck one shirt into the machine, the rest of the clothes are washed. i think i'll update when i have more energy, will hopefully upload some photos, of what happened and stuff like that. maybe upload the photo of the cake i got for mam, the same one i got for Ee Seuu, except smaller. didn't need so big because lesser people...ok, so that's all! until next time! stay tuned to hear about my busy streak!

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Tuesday tuesday tuesday!

2010-01-06T01:10:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7.20am today, went to school as per usual, my lessons start at 10 today btw. so why did i come to school so early? well because i want to eat breakfast! nono, not at foodcourt 3 but, at foodcourt 5 a.k.a KFC, pizzahut, subway or bang deli. you might ask me why i today so special to eat there instead of foodcourt 3 right? well, the answer is simple, because KFC doesn't open so early. so, today's breakfast, ate the usual, a.m. twister american meal, lucky for me, there was more bacon than usual today! hohoho! super happy!...zomg baconnnnn! hahaha... then waited for bobo, but his lesson ended spot on 10, so we met at the next class, when we reached, we were late by a few mins but there was no one in class, so we said we'll wait for 15 mins. so we waited. and no one showed up so we left and then we were free till 1.30pm! hohoho!...so we went back to foodcourt 5, home of the KFC. then i received an email saying my cheque was ready for collection. i'm like zomg!...so early??...noooo!...later i spend it, and no money to buy the *ahem* for *ahem* and *ahem*'s birthday, cannot mention in case they read ...hahhaa...so when i received the email i straight away went to collect, turned out they haven't bring the cheque there -.- so i went back...so didn't do anything...then note to self: be wary of jeremy's friends. they jokingly told me to treat them, and i really treat them. then one of his friend sneaked in a $10 note into my bag, and i didn't know until jeremy told me! i'm like wtf?!...professional thief sia! xD ... hahaha... then sat around till 7 plus without anything to do ... grrr...hate it when we have nothing to do ... then went home, dad pressed me to fix up the very very very very old lappy and i did, and wooh!...i got it working!...i love my great ability of computer knowledge. and i found some of my old files in there, haha....great...lets see what else...other than that nothing else...oh and i'm gonna be busy starting thursday, because i'll be involved in open house, i got classes, and i still have scouts to go to...and i'm sleeping over at my secondary school, MAD far from SP, because on friday still need go sp, so stay ton at secondary school then go back to sp in the morning then after that go back sec school, gonna be tiring then i still have to go sp on sat, wow. and ramdan has a concert thingy on sunday, oh man...i highly doubt i'll be going, i'll see who's going first...and i'm thinking of buying cake for mam...should i?...hmm...and that'll be all, no movie reviews for this post, i can't always post movie reviews because...well, just because....

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The Re-Opening Of School!

2010-01-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

well, school reopened today, didn't do much. started my usual daily school routine. woke up at 5.30am, reluctantly and i actually didn't realise my alarm was ringing because i'm just so used to the song. hahaha. woke up, showered, went to school, ate breakfast(breakfast set at fc3) with boris, by right, i do not need to contact him, and he would automatically come to fc3 but by left, i wanted to make sure, so i sms-ed him. what else? oh...i got my structured programming mst paper today, and also the lab test. got 68 for my mst, and 82 for my lab test. phew! didn't do that badly. should've studied. i really wonder, why can't i study?WHY?WHY?! its so eff-ed up man. i really want to study but, there's like some kind of unknown supernatural force, manipulating my mind, shortening its lifespan rendering me unable to study. someone, please...save me from me...before my structured programming i went for work, from 1-3. lots of people, felt bad leaving alexander there alone =( ... but i've sworn to myself not to skip lessons due to work. i'm ashamed i even thought of skipping. sorry bobo =( ... and i went for structured programming which lasted for 10 mins -.- yes, 10 mins. after which tried to play resident evil 5 multiplayer with bobo, unfortunately can't detect bobo's game, vice versa. and clock struck 4pm, off i went for ACERs meeting!... kinda slow today. finished at 6.32PM went home with Leroy, Jerry, Kiran and Michie. reached home, toilet, dinner||tv, bed||laptop. urgh. gotta remove this new habit of mine, lazing around TOO MUCH. so thats pratically my day, oh and chatted with Ee Seuu, she super duper busy, her groupmates aren't helping much with the projects >=( i iz angry, i said to her. she better get the most marks. lets see, other updates, my face getting oilier =( and more pimples appearing =(( and my hair becoming dry =((( what other updates, got a nice leather jacket, mommy bought from bangkok, got a pair of cool shade, 2nd sis got for me from Cotton On, like weird eh?. To Ee Seuu, if i'm not a good bro, then she wouldn't have gotten it for me =P ... see! i'm not such a bad bro! huhuhu! other than that, waiting to get my movie tix, then ask jeanell, carin and her boyboy out to movies! been a long time since i went to the movies...and now a new section, movie review!

MOVIE REVIEW - The Invention Of Lying

relatively nice movie, good story line. but not for those who expect action. its quite a boring show, but qutie interesting, living in a world where there's no lying. basically, it would only be interesting to analytical people. the story is actually about a world where there is no such thing as lying, or, saying what is not. then suddenly this guy, starts saying what is not, or to us, lying but since no one in the world knew that you could saying something that is not, everyone believed him, which means, you go to some random chick on the streets and tell her, you are my wife, she would go, "I am? Oh, Hi Honey!" or, you go to a bank and say that you have a million dollars in your account, and they would say that its a computer error and put in the million bucks into your account.so if this sounds interesting to you, then you should go catch it. if its not in the cinemas, you know where to catch it, if you know what i mean...

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Plain Update...

2010-01-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

ok, lets see what happened...a few days ago ate together with family at home...been a long time since that happened...what else?...went for scouts, gonna join back Phoenix Scout Group, need to get navy uniform! =D ... got pissed off today...but my 2nd sister got me shades from cotton on =DD...she's so kind...that it scares me =p...other than that, played minesweeper flags with Jeanell because was bored...those 2 things lifted my mood up a bit...looking forward to going fishing with leroy...hahaha...my equipment is underused ever since i entered poly...ok fine, the gears are new, i think got then in 2008?...haha...my parents got them for me spontaneously when we went to the beach without any of my old gear...so i was sitting there...they said they were going to the shop to get food, but they came back with extra things...then i'm like woooow!...so happy that i no longer need to use my old antique rusty rod!...i lvl-ed up!...hahaa...okay...so that'll be all...oh and school's starting 2moro!...sooo excitedddd!...YAY!...hahaha...AND i realise i'm always adding ellipsis to everything i type, from blogging to sms-ing to msn-ing...hai...there i go again...okok...till next time...

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Alone. by Stefani Baucom

2010-01-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

I am alone,
so very alone

I am hurt,
so very bad

I am ignored,
just thrown aside

I am security,
for others to have

I am lonely,
there is no one close,
no one sees the pain

I cry,
hope is gone

I am alone,
and no one knows

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New Year's Day...Doesn't Feel Like It...

2009-12-31T15:19:00.000+08:00

you know one of those days where i feel emo-er than usual? well, today's one of it. even though it's new year's day today. i think that this has been the emo-est year. hai... why do i feel so down? i won't be celebrating this year. i'm just so down. well, there isn't much to update thus, i shall bid farewell and continue eating my KFC. yes, i know. so much junk food this year too...

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Comic reminded me of Ee Seuu...

2009-12-27T20:07:00.000+08:00

didn't do much today, as usual...had macs for lunch today...had pizza for breakfast...hadn't eat dinner yet...basically sat in bed the whole day...except for when i go for toilet breaks and to take my shower...and also periodical tv breaks...but nothing good on tv...been quite some time since i properly watched tv...and i've restarted my after showers exercise again!...woohoo!...but gonna start slowly...with 20 diamond push-ups and 10 sit-ups after shower...and then slowly increase the numbers...hope it lasts...ok...so to end this all, i was looking through FJ as usual...and i came across this comic which reminded me of EE SEUU!...HAHHAHAH!...so this would be the fourth post in a row containing ee seuu's name...better stop posting about her already...hahahhaa....so enjoy the ballz!

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MAD JACK's

2009-12-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

well, I was too lazy to update last night so, I'm updating today morning...
nothing much happened yesterday, as usual rotted away on my bed. To make matters worse, not that much people were online thus, I had no one to talk to. yes, i know very saddening...
i want to express how i hate being a delivery boy >=( argh!...so effed up!...why must i go around Singapore to pass things to people??..and i don't get paid! ALSO when they want to pass stuff to us, why must i go and collect?!...why can't they be the one collecting and sending?!...argh!...so thats how i feel...
had dinner at MAD JACK's!...ordered a beef lasagne, which was MAD nice!...oh and they have quite a selection of vegetarian food too...so you can eat there double-e!...wow, this is the third post in a row with ee seuu's name in it...lawl...then went home...daddy wanted to watch 2012...but even before the movie started, he fell asleep, so he said...monday can watch...then he went into his room and started snoring...xD...and i went into my room and used the computer!...what else?...hahha...so basically thats all i did...
oh and i found a microSD adapter!...omg!...how lucky am i?!...hahahahha...(not that lucky actually)...
so thats all for now...enjoy!

PS. sorry for the lousy quality...click to see it clearer...

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Pizza...

2009-12-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

mommy came home today, and daddy came home super early from work today...ordered pizza, meat lovers, my fav...ate 4 slices...mmmm....then actually wanted to go bowling...in the end went to grand's place....hai...granddaddy's getting sicker and sicker...but he hides it well, can't even tell from first glance...stayed there for quite a short period only...then went to downtown east to eat dinner, ate at some middle-end restaurant...not that bad...then in the end, went bowling...i'm getting worse at it...was quite emo while playing it...basically thats all, oh and dad said my striped black and red shirt was nice...oh, and don't know why...ee seuu, you should get a blog, like seriously...hahha...thats all...ima like so lazy to update...grrr....

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25th December 2009, 12:51am

2009-12-25T01:01:00.000+08:00

merry christmas people, and as usual...i'm aloneeeeeeeee....
hahaha...but who cares?...i know i don't...because i don't celebrate christmas...
well, i used to celebrate...yep...my family used to go for christmas parties organised by my dad's hotel...those were the days...
well, not much to post...been rotting these few days, seriously got nothing to do...mommy coming back today....
oh, and sorry double-e for not updating my blog everyday...sheesh!...you know ee seuu, you're kinda bossy....XD...haha...just kidding...
well, thats all...enjoy my funny/inspirational column...

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i don't know why i'm posting this picture...maybe because i think it's really great that 2 totally different animals can come together...or, maybe because i just feel so empty...so...alone...

Weekend's Over!

2009-12-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

Have I told you how much i hated doing this kind of things? Well, I do...What do I hate doing? I hate helping out for weddings. Traditional malay weddings at least. Why? because there's so much to do, and you can't sleep! argh! Why must my mom force me to do this kind of things! so god damn pissed off. Worst of all, I still have loads of cousins who have yet gotten married! Which means there's more weddings! ARGH! overall, the wedding wasn't bad. And I managed to escape early from the wedding. that's all for the weekends.

Today's Monday, highlight, INTERNET FIXED!wooh!...huhuhu...but the 2wire 2701hgv-e sucks!...urgh!...connection speed between computer and router = 54mbps! >=( and i can't use my dlink dir-615 n router! >=( which would have a connection speed between computer and router = 300mbps!!... argh!!...to make matters worse!, when i'm dl-ing things, everyone on the network won't be able to use internet because the fucking 2wire router's bandwidth just plain sucks!...what teh fuck man!...argh!! enough about the fucking lousy router i'm using, the person came to fixed, luckily i checked my uplink, because it was only 4000 kbps plus, when it should be 15000 kbps, so the person checked and the wires were faulty, so he fixed it and my uplink jumped to 22000 kbps! he said that singtel is rich and can afford to give you more hahhah!...btw, i only got the 15mbps plan ... 15000kbps = 15mbps, so i'm actually paying less for more! ... hahahha!...but still, i'm not getting the most out of it, unless i plug my cat5e cable...and the guy showed us how to use the mioTV and all, how to view the 15 free movies every month...then he stayed awhile and chatted with me...well, thats all....enjoy the hopefully daily jokes and inspirational things!(P.S. click the pic to see it bigger and clearer...)

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Source: FunnyJunk

Don't We All?...

2009-12-16T20:31:00.000+08:00

Ok, not much happened today, went to ACERs training, amazingly, i wasn't that afraid to speak in front of a crowd!and i think i did quite well!...yay for me! so after that there was food!FOODFOODFOODFOODFOODFOODFOODFOODFOODFOODFOODFOOD! hahahahha... they got more food! and the newer ones were nicer!...i loved the potato thingy! hahhaa ... then went home with Ee Seuu, she's a great listener =) but sometimes i wonder whether it's a good thing to talk about things because of my ever thinking mind, after i talked about them, i'll just keep thinking about them, when all i want to do is forget about them. anyway it was still a bit relieving for my chest. thanks Ee Seuu =). mommy and daddy went bowling, now alone at home. they asked me to tag along, but i'm no longer addicted to bowling like last time. haha, during the break, after o levels and before poly, i went bowling like every single day! OMG! hahahaha...
and i watched Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs, since i didn't want to go bowling. Basically thats all... oh and you guys should listen to Beautiful by Eminem, I love his raps, they're all so meaningful. To end the post for the night, another inspirational note, which might get all you reading it thinking, Don't We All?...

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I was parked in front of the mall wiping off my car. I had just come
from the car wash and was waiting for my wife to get out of work.
Coming my way from across the parking lot was what society would
consider a bum.

From the looks of him, he had no car, no home, no clean clothes, and no
money. There are times when you feel generous but there are other times
that you just don't want to be bothered. This was one of those "don't
want to be bothered times."
"I hope he doesn't ask me for any money," I thought.
He didn't.

He came and sat on the curb in front of the bus stop but he didn't look
like he could have enough money to even ride the bus.

After a few minutes he spoke.
"That's a very pretty car," he said.
He was ragged but he had an air of dignity around him. His scraggly
blond beard keep more than his face warm.
I said, "thanks," and continued wiping off my car.
He sat there quietly as I worked. The expected plea for money never
came.

As the silence between us widened something inside said, "ask him if
he needs any help." I was sure that he would say "yes" but I held true
to the inner voice.
"Do you need any help?" I asked.
He answered in three simple but profound words that I shall never forget.
We often look for wisdom in great men and women. We expect it from
those of higher learning and accomplishments.
I expected nothing but an
outstretched grimy hand. He spoke the three words that shook me.
"Don't we all?" he said.

I was feeling high and mighty, successful and important, above a bum
in the street, until those three words hit me like a twelve gauge
shotgun.

Don't we all?
I needed help. Maybe not for bus fare or a place to sleep, but I
needed help. I reached in my wallet and gave him not only enough for bus
fare, but enough to get a warm meal and shelter for the day. Those
three little words still ring true. No matter how much you have,
no matter
how much you have accomplished, you need help too. No matter how little you have,
no matter how loaded you are with problems, even without money or a place to sleep, you can give help.
Even if it's just a compliment, you can give that.
You never know when you may see someone that appears to have it all.
They are waiting on you to give them what they don't have. A different
perspective on life, a glimpse at something beautiful, a respite from
daily chaos, that only you through a torn world can see.
Maybe the man was just a homeless stranger wandering the streets. Maybe
he was more than that.
Maybe he was sent by a power that is great and
wise, to minister to a soul too comfortable in themselves.
Maybe God looked down, called an Angel, dressed him like a bum, then said,
"go minister to that man cleaning the car, that man needs help."

Don't we all?

Source: FunnyJunk

15th December 2009, 8:10 PM

2009-12-15T20:18:00.000+08:00

Came back from work. Chriciel called me yesterday to ask me to work today. So I said yes but, it was unusually boring at work today, maybe because that there was very little people coming in. Which basically means free money for me =D. Got my first pay today, 70 dollars only. Went straight to the bank to deposit it BUT I FORGOT TO CROSS IT!OMG!I hope it still goes through.
Basically that's all for today, oh and also i watched planet 51. Quite funny...not that bad...And to end this post, i'll post a funny comic strip. Enjoy!

Source: FunnyJunk

Never Under-estimate small gestures...

2009-12-14T16:53:00.000+08:00

Okay...so it's the holidays...so i'm rotting at home, meaning there's not much to write in. So i'll just post funny and inspirational things on here...and here's one...

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One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him.

He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes. My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives."

He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his face.

It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.

We talked all the way home, and I carried his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play
football on Saturday with me and my friends. He said yes. We hung all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him. And my friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.

I stopped him and said, "Damn boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors, began to think about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.

Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak.

Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than me and all the girls loved him! Boy, sometimes I was jealous.

Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!" He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. "Thanks," he said. As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began.

"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your
siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends. I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.

I am going to tell you a story." I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.

He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. "Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable." I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse. God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.

Source:FunnyJunk

Bitch Ran Over My Frog.

2009-12-14T02:50:00.000+08:00

There was this little boy about 12 years old walking down the sidewalk dragging a flattened frog on a string behind him. He came up to the doorstep of a house of ill repute and knocked on the door. When the Madam answered it, she saw the little boy and asked what he wanted.

He said, "I want to have sex with one of the women inside. I have the money to buy it, I'm not leaving until I get it."

He asked, "Do any of the girls have any diseases?"

Of course the Madam said no.

He said, "I heard all the men talking about having to get shots after making love with Amber. THAT'S the girl I want."

Since the little boy was so adamant and had the money to pay for it, the Madam told him to go to the first room on the right.

He headed down the hall dragging the squashed frog behind him. Ten minutes later he came back, still dragging the frog, paid the Madam, and headed out the door. The Madam stopped him and asked, "Why did you pick the only girl in the place with a disease, instead of one of the others?"

He said, Well, if you must know, tonight when I get home, my parents are going out to a restaurant for dinner, leaving me at home with a baby-sitter. After they leave, my baby-sitter will have sex with me because she just happens to be very fond of cute little boys. She will then get the disease I just caught. When Mom and Dad get back, Dad will take the baby-sitter home. On the way, he'll jump the baby-sitter's bones, and he'll catch the disease. Then when Dad gets home from the baby-sitters, he and Mom will go to bed and have sex, and Mom will catch it. In the morning when Dad goes to work, the Milkman will deliver the milk, have a quickie with Mom and catch the disease, and HE'S the son-of-a-bitch who ran over my FROG!"

Source: FunnyJunk

City Boy Meets The Kampong...

2009-12-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not telling that I left people.
Ok. What about my trip? nothing special actually. went to Batu Pahat, Malaysia. stayed at a hotel, garden hotel. 2-star only...but it was not bad...
went shopping...bought 2 new shirts for myself...
went to the kampong...couldn't find any chicks =(...sadded...as in real chicks btw...they're soooo cuteeee! hahahaha...
so...not much....yea...you can go and view the photos in my facebook...lazy to upload them here...so...thats all for now!...ciao!...

Doomsday's tomorrow.

2009-12-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

ok so, what did i do today?

well, was planning to wake up at 9, then go to school.(even though 9 had no school today) wanted to go to support my FRIENDS!.

BUT mom was nagging, and i ended up waking at 7, got ready, left house at about 7.45am to go to lavender, ICA building. why? to update passport photo. but turned out, cannot update anymore. if you want to update must get new passport...so i'm like wtf?...and was lazy to make so didn't make...so wasted my time coming down...

so reached school at about 9?...or somewhere around there...went to fc5 and saw matt!..ahahha!...so sat with him...passed him the linkin park songs which he wanted.(i have 99% if not all of LP's songs)

then i watched inglorious basterds until like 11.30am then went up to CASS! to support my FRIENDS!...and i bought 6 hugs! =DD...so proud of myself!...good job Zac! =)...wills soon upload the photos, must get from yi kai first!...so, i stayed with them till they closed shop...they collected like 100 plus?..i think...thats not bad man!...so, who did i hug?...lets see...Carin, Leon, Yi Kai, Sebas, Vaanie, Amanda!..hahhaha...

after that me, leon, amanda, shafarie went to somerset!...uniclo!...hahaha...sadly for leon, he didn't find the thing he wanted...awww...sadded...hahahha...so walked walked walked, found out shafarie hates the aroma of coffee!...OMG!!...LIEK WOWZ!...hahhaha...so shafarie went off earlier...so me, leon and amanda...was like walking and walking and walking, until we walked to orchard...hhahhah...so then we went home...basically only did window shopping!...saw a few nice laptops and saw ALIENWARE! ZOMG!...I WANT ONE!...DIEDIEMUSTHAVE!...but it was like so heavy...for a laptop...and it was bulky...but Intel Core i7! << click to find out more...
ok...so basically thats all uh...hopefully will update soon...but most likely not during the hols because i'll be rotting at home...got my work schedule for the hols...only working for one day from 1pm-5pm -.- ....

Mix9

2009-12-05T19:03:00.001+08:00

ANOTHER MIX, OUT OF BOREDOM.

Mix9 - Zac, TheOneAndOnly

VDJ is fun!

2009-12-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

So, i was bored today...and i got a new software =D...i decided to play with it, and look or rather listen to what the outcome is!

ENJOY!

mix7.mp3 - Zac, TheOneAndOnly

(i just had to spoil the song didn't i?...xD)

3rd Dec 09, 12:10 AM

2009-12-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

SUCCESS! at checking the security of WEP encryption. Still can't believe its so easy to get the encryption key. so i wonder why wlan2Spice use that then.

ok that aside. actually wanted to study, but ubuntu kept calling me, distracting me, oh man...seriously need to study...now, the definition of failure in my dictionary is death.

i seriously have to buck up already. i need help!!...

and that aside. what did i do for the past few days?
tuesday - well, there was this guy from AIA came to talk to me and Bo, talked about saving plan! he came to us when we were sitting at t15 study area...but whatever he talked about was so interesting...i really am thinking of get one today...and we talking to him made us miss our PEEE lecture...
wednesday - went for DE, ubuntu distracted me again. Bo slept for a while i think...but i didn't wanna disturb him cause i saw him online until quite late...then worked from 11am - 1pm at t2248 then went to GEMs...the lecturer played with our emotions...hahaha...well done, well done...then after that ate mac's!...wooh!...mega mcspicy upsize plus apple pie!...xD...after which i went to work again....work was fun that i worked 20 mins more without realising!...haha...once i realised i rushed out and went home...because i didn't want to stay longer...

so basically thats all...boring right?...
well, welcome to Zac's Life.

Cute Ubuntu!

2009-11-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Damnit.

2009-11-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

Okay. So, i've changed alot. yea. i can't believe myself. i've become lesser of an asshole. =))) and i've finally started to study! for the first time ever in my life! i'm really studying! haha. okay...

next up. i installed ubuntu on my computer! omg! its so cute can!...hahaha... now doing some security tests with it... BUT ITS NOT WORKING!DAMNIT!>=( wow man, its hard to use. need to type in codes and everything if you want to install apps... and currently have not found out how to install windows app onto it...

well...thats pretty much everything(not really)...i just don't know what to write...
oh and i was alone at FC5 until 8pm today... studying...

k then...that'll be all... i'll try to upload a screen capture of the cuteness of Ubuntu and upload it here when i'm free... so stay tuned! =)

My Artpieces So Far...

2009-11-28T15:10:00.000+08:00

My Latest One.

The Logo For My Blog.

I Love Colours!!

Destiny.

2009-11-27T09:18:00.000+08:00

So.
Some of my fears, the things which i was afraid of, well, has happened. Why am I not surprised?
But I'm still happy. Why, you ask? Well, seeing her happy, makes me happy.
I'm not selfish and I'm not stingy. It's okay if i don't get what i want. It's okay if what i wanted makes someone else happy.
I changed, for what? I'm not sure. Why did i change? I'm not sure. Maybe it was to impress people around me. Why? Again, I'm not sure. I wish i knew why.
It's just destiny, for me to be alone. After all, wasn't it what i wanted? To be alone for life? I'm not sure whether i still want that.
What's my purpose in life now? I don't know what to do already.
Let's just hope that my other fears do not come true. Else, there is no point in me living already.
Last but not least, why am I so attached to all my friends? I'm supposed to be an introvert, I'm supposed to be able to live alone. But now, I feel so lost without them.

Yours,
TheOneAndOnlyZach!

Friends.

2009-11-25T08:25:00.000+08:00

To All My Friends,
                             I Will Try To Support You In Anyway I Can Because You All Mean A Lot To Me. I Cherish Every Moment I Spend With You All. I Love You All.

And To Carin, I Wish You All The Best For Tomorrow, I Will Be There To Support You All The Way And I Want You To Know That Whatever Happens, We All Will Still Be Behind You, Pushing You To Greatness. =)
                                                                                                                                                               From,
                                                                                                                                                               TheOneAndOnlyZach!

2009-11-24T06:18:00.000+08:00

pssst!,

hehe... =P

I'm Afraid...

2009-11-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

I'm Afraid, Of Getting Rejected.
I'm Afraid, Of Asking You.
I'm Afraid, Of Not Being Accepted.
I'm Afraid, Of You Not Giving Me A Chance.
I'm Afraid, Of Being Ignored.
I'm Afraid, Of Trying.
I'm Afraid, Of Failing.
I'm Afraid, Of Losing.
I'm Afraid, Of My Life Not Going As Planned.
I'm Afraid, Of Being Afraid.
I'm Afraid...
I'm Afraid...
I'm Afraid...
I'm Afraid...
I'm Afraid...
I'm Afraid...
Why Am I Afraid?
Why Must I Be Afraid?
Why?...
Why?...
Why?...
Why?...
Why?...
Somebody Help Me.
Help.

Leave Out All The Rest

2009-11-21T10:55:00.000+08:00

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Lyrics | Linkin Park lyrics - Leave Out All The Rest lyrics

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on this surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

Life Update.

2009-10-30T21:34:00.000+08:00

Well, not much interesting thing has happened.
I'm getting pissed off with some people.
I'm having deep thoughts.
Drifting further and further from others.
Thinking, are they really who i want to hang out with?ans;no.
Confused.
Why must people think that way?
Well, my most famous advice I give to people, i don't use myself, which is don't do for people, do for yourself. and don't care what others think of you.
I need proper friends.
Those who are what i used to hang out with.
why am i like this?
why have i changed so much as to it can hurt those around me?
is the change only good for me?
so many questions.
so many thoughts.
so many confusion.

Ugly.

2009-10-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

I Would Never Treat a Cat Like That, No Matter How Ugly, Never. Actually, The Uglier It Is, The More Love I Would Give To It. I Cried When I Read This.

Give Me Your Name.

2009-10-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Lyrics | Dead By Sunrise lyrics - Give Me Your Name lyrics

Give me a smile
Give me your name girl
Give me a sign to get my way
And get what I came for
Because you don't come easy

Give me your hand
Come walk with me girl
Nothing's that far when your near
So come even closer to me
Something so easy to do

And I fall into the ocean
Inside of your arms
Taking me deeper where all the pain goes

Give me a smile
Give me your name girl
Let them know that you're mine
And I'll do the same for you
Because our love comes easy

And I fall into the ocean
Inside of your arms
Taking me deeper where all the pain goes

And I fall into the ocean
Inside of your arms
Taking me deeper where all the pain goes

With a smile into the ocean
Inside of your arms
Taking me deeper giving me new life

You are my whole life
You are my whole life

Goodbye My Friend.

2009-10-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

I look out the window
to find that there is nothing there
to walk out the door
finding that you are not here

i sit by the window
waiting for you
soon after you were gone
i feel that you are there

but i'm all alone
i look all around
and i feel its cold and dark
there's nothing around

i'm in a corner
reminiscence about the past
but its all too late
i'm the last

i don't want to stay here
its time for me to move on
i can't wait here anymore
goodbye my friend.

Let Down

2009-10-18T11:20:00.000+08:00

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Lyrics | Dead By Sunrise lyrics - Let Down lyrics

And the tears fall like rain
Down my face again
Oh the words you wouldn't say
And the games you played
With my unfoolish heart
Oh I should have known this from the start

Oh the winter and spring
Going hand in hand
Just like my love and pain
How the thought of you cuts deep within the vein
Brand new skin stretched across scared terrain

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road
So I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road

All those years down the drain
Love was not enough when you want everything
What I gave to you and now the end must start
Oh I should have listened to my heart

'Cause I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road
So I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road

Oh...

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road
So I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road

SP ACER

2009-10-17T18:06:00.000+08:00

wow...dunno who nominated me to be SP outreach ambassador. but nevertheless, it was fun!...met a lot of new people!...ahhaha...
so it was fun...played games...i'm starting to become like my old self, active in activities...
i don't know what happened...i used to be like active when i was in secondary school, always being hyper, volunteering myself, also winning best camper award for my malay camp in sec 1...then as years passed by, i started becoming lazy. not participating...
i hope to be my old self again...well, not fully...haha...because if i were to be my old self, then i would have to wear my socks super high and be an extreme geek...
so, i'll just be active...haha...and i miss my fan club during my sec school days...haha...yep...well, it wasn't officially a fan club...
only that a lot of people who say hi and jump when they see me(mostly girls)...but who can i blame...when i was sec 1 i was cute...but not anymore...sadly...haiz...really need my sisters help...i need to god damn change my style...ok...that will be all for now even though i have more things to post about...

The 429907.3560

2009-10-13T08:04:00.000+08:00

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Dedicated To Reina...

2009-10-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to reina, for no particular reason. eh HotBabe, you happy now??...xD...haha...okok...the reason i'm dedicating this to her is because she said she wanted to read my blog but then, my blog was already dead. So if she did not want to read it, then it would've remained dead. so everyone thank her for reviving my blog. but lets just hope that the blog will remain alive. ok...i don't know what else to put. so i'll just say who this HotBabe is since this post is dedicated to her. Her name is Reina Ng. I met her when i went to ICE camp 2009. i must have done a good deed before last time that god now put her in my group...RAVEN X!...hahaha...ok...so at first we like dun talk to each other that much...then also throughout the camp also we didn't talk that much...it was only after break camp and then we had lunch together then we started bonding...hahahaha...yep...its always after the camp that people become closer together...weird eh?...so ok...she's not such a bad girl...so yah...so basically that about her la...ok...nothing much to say already...i need go to sleep anyway since i got SP ACER training tomorrow...haha...don't know whether i'm looking forward for it or not...

Microsoft Licensing!(hope i don't get sued by them...xD)

2009-09-10T11:41:00.000+08:00

I just found out more geek info!...for those people who don't speak geek, sorry but i'll try to make it sound as non-geek as possible.ok.so lets start.people should know that most computers are using 32-bit OSes. OS is Operating System by the way.ok then microsoft says that 32-bit OSes cannot support ram higher than 4gb thus, if you go to your task manager>>performance and look at your physical memory, it will not put your full 4096mb, it will be lower than that. BUT!...yes!, there is a BUT!...even though microsoft says its because of the infrastructure on how the computer is built that 32-bit OSes cannot support over 4gb ram. so if its the infrastructure, then if you install a 64-bit OS onto a previously 32-bit OS, then your computer would be able to support ram over 4gb right?...which means that it is NOT the infrastructure!..and if you're thinking "then like that change to 64-bit OS lor!", the reason most computer don't come with 64-bit is that its not compatible with a lot of things thats why. SO!...as i was saying...BUT!...i found out that 32-bit OSes can go over 4gb!...the god damned microsoft placed in a license into all 32-bit OSes, in other words, they programmed 32-bit OSes not to accept RAMs over 4gb...!(&#!$(*!@!!!...ok, so by replacing the current kernel with a hacked kernel, in 32-bit OSes, we can make 32-bit OSes accept RAMs over 4gb!!WOOHOO!GREAT ISN'T IT!!...3 CHEERS FOR HACKING!...haha...ok...doing this allows your system to fully maximize ALL your ram, which means that your computer will be 2x faster then before, but this is still in its testing stages, all my hackers are testing this 24/7...xD...haha...and i only give them 5 minutes to eat, sleep, shit, pee, drink and sex. so this is using PAE(physical address extension) if you guys wanted to know...ok...so thats all for the RAMs...but wait!...there's more!...yes!..there is!...for windows vista/7 home premium and lower, microsoft made another license!YES!...another license!...!*@*#&!&#!!!...OMFG RIGHT?!!!...and i think this license is even worse than the RAM 'cause it defeats all purpose of having a processor with 2 cores!!!!!!!!!!...because this license makes the OS detect only 1 core!!?!?!??!!!!!!...yes, you'll be wondering, "oh don't worry, he's gonna say something about hacking this". well, you're WRONG!...W-R-O-N-G!...hackers have tried changing this license to detect 2 cores and they FAILED!...well, failure only leads to success they say, so when they changed this, either the computer just worked but not giving any shit about the 2nd core or, the computer locked down...so again, my hackers are trying to find a hack for this, like before, 24/7, 5 mins break blablablablabla...ok...so thats all...if you all want the RAM hack wait a while until i say that its 1% safe...xD...haha...k....bye for now...

ctrl + a mofos!

PS, i don't really have hackers noobshits!

TGIF!(not really)

2009-08-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

wah...its the end of the day already...time to write in to my blog what happened today...haha....i woke up at 9.37am ... and my sister was going to take a shower...then after a while...i ask her to hurry up....then she say she going wash the clothes(i'm hand-washing my clothes coz living at chalet, no washing machine). so she asked me what time i start school...then i told her 12pm....AHHAHAH!...my sis is gonna be pissed off when i tell her i started school at 4pm...i bet she will read this...so i must be prepared when i go back!....then at school...i edited my blog and stuffs...didn't study...so yah...boring!...from 11.45am(reached school) to 3.30pm do nothing but sit at computer...hahaha...then after that was MATHEMATICS I(B)!!...djeng! djeng!! DJENG!!!!...hhahahaha...well...i shall cheong next semester...thats if i'm still in school...coz i submitted appeal for the PSEA Standing Order on wednesday...then today i tried logging in to mySAS and successful!...coz the few days i couldn't log in..thinking that they closed my account because i didn't pay tuition fees...then ok...i thought my appeal went through coz i could log in today....but when i went to the examination room, i saw the attendance paper at it still states UNPAID FEES!....omg...damn sad man....haiya....i pity Jeremy...if i get kicked out....he will be lonely...i feel for you Jeremy!...so lets all hope that my appeal goes through!...so that Jeremy would not lose a friend!...so after all that...now i'm at macdonalds coz Jeremy had to go for his friend's birthday...so if i stayed at school i would be lonely...so went home early...and now i'm at mac's at whitesands because i got no key!...i msg'ed my sister who was holding to the key but she replied very late!...when i reach mac's then she replied...so i'll have to wait until 9pm or something then i'll go to the mosque and get the key from my mom....so for break-fast today only ate double cheeseburger with a small coke...=(...so sad....you should feel responsible Jeremy!...for not telling me in advance!!....okay then...i think this 3rd post very long already...so i shall say goodbye!...until next time i update!...

Blog Updated!

2009-08-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

wooh!...my blog is gay man!...ahahha!...you must have an account which i make to view my blog!...this is like so great man!....now i can insult the government and the police without the public knowing!...this is gay man!....will update some more...ciao!

1st Post!

2009-08-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

1st Post!...haha!...will update some more soon!...hopefully...i used to have blogs last time....then nvr update...then you know ah...so...HOPEFULLY this time i will keep updating!...cheers!